-Immediately take a Left, Go down the alley that says "Dead End."
Saturday, March 03, 2007
so the internet has been down for 2 weeks.a mistake according to the Seattle man who finally turned it back on, thanks, Qwest. Bunch of useless fuckers.
Everything little seems to be breaking, lights burning out daily.
Sinks stopping up.
Disc drives dying.
Cd players dying.
nothing big, just annoying.
to sum up, have a new temp job, am interviewing for more, nowhere else wants me, this job was given to me by a friend who got a job there.
Tried to open a coffee shop, don't have the money. I'm gonna wish real hard on it this weekend and maybe it'll work out.
Am thinking about joining a bigger firm, too. Cause the real estate is an interesting job.
The pug has taken to just standing at the door, refusing to go out and shitting in the house instead. It has been biblical deluge for the past few days, true, and he is 105. But it's still gross.
it's march.
i guess i should go to san francisco.
april, maybe new york.
Really what have i done in 2007.
Looked for jobs. Watched a lot of movies from the library.
Sort have stopped smoking.
i just decided that i wanted to live.
a boy said it was more pleasant to hang out with me and kiss me when i wasn't smoking and then lectured me about how i was a judgmental person and i should just be like him and love everybody and left without making out with me. for some reason i cried a lot. must've been tired.
so now that the light's coming back, i guess i go to the gym and dig in the garden and read books and go on hikes and wait for the next chapter to play out. The four-month-party was pretty fun tho. But now i'm done. ready for reading. ready to go.
haven't been anywhere in a year. weird.
time to go.
-Immediately take a Left, Go down the alley that says "Dead End."
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
so blogger has gone insane and i am drunk and the messed as ever but all i wrote here tonight o sayother than there is a month in another link that i can't yet get to you
but nyway
why sleep
?
there is music
yep that is ll
all
someday the two mysteriously split blogs will be one but who really cares or is reading all that you need to know just now is why lsleeeop
there is music
-Immediately take a Left, Go down the alley that says "Dead End."
Thursday, December 14, 2006
practice was cancelled last night as the guitarist has now thrown his back out.but in good news, found out at 4 pm today that we are playing Salem.
also....
...saw the band called Broken Spoke with the metal and the "BLARRRAAAAAAGH!!!!"""
i tried to make the video recording go, but the heads needed cleaning and then the battery died and so there you are...
also
my car almost went aloft and the tv and lights keeps flickeringly trying to go out...ah, windstorms...
also
tomorrow night if you are free will will no longer be going to seattle so we willinstead be last minute at the curious hands house party 6805 N. Maryland we go on after 9:30...asi work at 18th and glisan til 8...
also
adorable
-Immediately take a Left, Go down the alley that says "Dead End."
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
12/8 Played Kelly's Olympian. Made $100 , enough to make the Seattle show the next week, but the guitarist has been clinically sick ans so can't miss more work and so we will not go, but we will be yet at Salem on the Saturday...we will make it...sorry to 32-Ways for faggoting out on Seattle, so it goes...'12/9
hm...12/9 saw jonathan richman and i will see him every chance i get for ever after . he is wonderful and not just because he sings in french spanish italian and hebrew but because he's funny can dance uses no guitar strap has no need to cry when a string breaks, "i've got five more!"
and has a voice as pretty as before i was even born. fuck.
12/10
saw movies made cookies had band practice and some other dastardly delicious things
12/11 12/11 was the day i quit smoking...until today when all was elusive and saw no reason not to, thoi didn't need, or even rabidly want to, but smoked three just the same...humans are strange...tried to read books and went to bed vaguely early after spilling red wine all over my bed and not even bothering to do anything about it beccause who the hell else sees my comforter cover unless they are about to be in my pants and so there you are....so left it there as a giant alcoholic blossom in the wintry clouds that are my bedroom...
12/12 awoke to rain, got out of bed three hours lATER than intended and go from there.
had a bit torrent lesson, wrangled the terrorist dogs, remembered that i REALLY need to be working come january, did some of the last of the online xmas shopping, was glad for the warmer tho rainier weather...
failed in hanging out with a boy and failed with throwing myself yet again at another...found out that tho still i n town this friday we can shoulder in o n a house party and so if you are free on friday we will be maybe playing with the curious hands at the hummous house off interstate...am trying to figure out how to make the january album happen and how to make everything else happen and tryo to remember how to get to all the dail y details because it is so bloody hard to get out of bed.
i'd say a million dollars would make things easier, but all mornings come with their own set of monkey bars and all bars come with their own foggy exits and nonsensical unnatainable lusts and the empty cold playground of morning always comes and i hate that instead of waking up and running out screaming WHEEE!!! WHAT DO I GET TO DO NEXT?!!! i instead wonder what raincoast to wear, and how many pairs of pants and if i can face the cold wet metal alone when at my most happiest i always can, and i wish i could get back to being happy on the swingset alone, rain on my face saying wheee to no one ... goddamit i love my dog...he just came snorting out of the living room, amidst my stpid rhetorical squalor snorting thru his gross chew toy, carrying it in his mouth like a bull-penis cigar and marching along , highly pleased with himself, blind , deaf, barely mobile,and remembering that dogs exist to remind us how envious we are of this pure singular pursuit of living for the delicious. jesus he's disgusting. i love him. it will be hell when i have to pay someone to put him down.
-Immediately take a Left, Go down the alley that says "Dead End."
Monday, December 04, 2006
"Who else will stuff chocolate puppies in your pants??!!"""Nobody, Jenica, nobody..."
-Immediately take a Left, Go down the alley that says "Dead End."
Sunday, December 03, 2006
almost a month...and yet...what can i tell you? freezing air, thanksgiving trips to the beach with weird dreams la grande and cove and multiple mental breakdowns...i seem to fall apart once a week now for no apparent reason..many thanks to mr angry josj welton for demanding that my psychotic self report to drinking duty in a certain restaurant kitchen to drink beer and smoke his cigarettes while he cleaned up and shut down for the night a week ago after watching Jet li's Fearless alone and then taking me out to a bar and making me laugh at everything even more so than myself and to jesse ransom whose birthday is tomorrow, who was drunk to slurring at the club 21 release concert thing at the bar last night celebrating his birthday and yet made me cry by saying things like, " you taught me what true friendship is, you taught me the meaning of honor, " and me , bursting into tears and saying, "what are you talking about? i've learned all these things from you..." goddamned jesse ransom, one of the greatest human beings in the universe saying such things to me after all these weeks of all semblance of knowledge of self and id and ego breaking the fuck apart and he says these things to me as i realize yet daily what a miserable excuse for a friend and human being that i am. i'm trying to figure out how the two can yet be real and right as he can't be so wrong and yet i know what i am..."i'm only a head and you are whatever you are..."
~The Brain That Wouldn't Die
saw Gabe Rozell tonight, he is so fucking good. he's on our myspace page. REal Sad one-man country music...finally went to the crow bar, it was nice and dark and friendly enough and at 8 oclock on a sunday night, quite nice and empty with a good jukebox.
we play at kelly's olympian friday...oh so much more to tell you of cancelled shows and boys and crushes and albums and new music and playing seattle and finding happiness on stage with a whole 8 people in the audience and learning to make squah soup from scratch and bread the same and learning that i am nothing and remembering how much it sucks to look for a job. happy holidays you'll all get a vague wave for xmas. maybe next year, cookies.
also, the new dog is a teutonic terrorist. more on that later.
also i now have a laptop, so maybe i'll forge on into this 21st century world and post pictures and learn this whole mp3 youtube video media business...
good luck in all this coldness
-Immediately take a Left, Go down the alley that says "Dead End."
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
it's so wrong, yet i love the South Park..."we're all big Gay friends here...!!" big gay al's big gay animal sanctuary....it's a little late for bull crap now...went to the beach foer the first time in 16 years...it was beyond horizontal winds and mayhem and ocean trying to take over the world and therefor having to fight jenica's hair to be the boss of the world...we got out, but the rest of them are there, i can't say trapped, due to higway 101 being flooded out and trailers washing away and i think cartman was involved...
in other news ..next mon. ash st. us in middle slot..
tonight starting ago at 10 pm is the garage rock premier or something according to the paper...30_Seconds Over Portland...haven't heard it, but if i had five bucks an fd could drive i'd check it our t for a bit...
ok, see u next monday.