idiocy
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
ok, weirder and weirder...depending on how you view the new blogger arranged ment it's difn't ...can't we al l just get along??
anyways.
i am not quite as drunk as this post might imply, it's just this damned sticky mac keyboard....
i AM NOT A TWITCHY PROGRANMMMER.
I DO NOT POUND THE SHIT OUT OF THE KEYS. and so they do not obey.
one moment, must switch music......
right then.
i don't know why, but since last october "golden lights" by the smiths has for some reason captured me when i hear it, esp. in the right mood. weird, eh? anyways. it' s berond simple. and anonying enough in the melody/harmonics. and yet i can't shake it. but this is the case with all my bad crushes.
speaking of, i think the current one is not so bad as just never can happen, like so many other s
and so so much nicer.
he's qute aware that i am irredeemable and retrded and ridiculus
and yet he is kind in the face of my dru
nken attempts at flirtation.
perhaps he is just pathologically kind.
only time will tell ig uess, if i am lucky enough to come by it.
the kids are in europe, playing to 4000+ houses.
the little catchy famous fuckers.
but i'm not bitter. just mostly lonely.
the pig is sleeping.
it is raining in that gentle portland late night way.
i am alone in a house full of bizarre equipment and spiders and it's all ok
i cut my fingers open playing last night.
that's a first.
but there was rock to be had and i had to keep up so there was nothing for it.
for the moment i am not so much scared as abstract about the impending show.
karaoke still scares me more.
i am currently typing my way thru yet another kickass portland rock kid show.
but i am so tired, that i cannot care.
they can rock on without me and no one will notice except maybe the bartender...
tomorrow may suck even more balls than today.
i've scheduled a visit with the boy for thursday.
another band spin off thing for fridy.
and then drunken dancing at the Fez.
i should like to see the atlantic ocean again, i don't care from what side.
i had something to say before i sat down, and it is forgotten.
i wish i could write the musical parts.
i wish i knew kung fu.
(i wish i knew a couple other things.
and among them is you.)