idiocy
Saturday, February 07, 2004
hi, hasve not posted in too long, i know, i've been tryihng to be good and get to sleep early and with auditions and such it has been difficult to ge t to sleep early...and then some friends got some very good news over the past week, and i wish them the best , but there has beena lfurry of activity and such about the house and so i've been a bit sucked in and have not been good and sleeping....am desperately trying to stick to said budget so i am ready to take over the world when i get thereee.....my typing is worse than my drinking, i swear, i am just too tired to repair the mistakes.in good news, i've had a lovely evening with some very nice people whom i will carry with me when we all part ways wehneever that happens, and it was nice and pleasant etc.
and i've met some very good people over the past week for musical purposees a nand tho i may not eget anywhere, i will get better, which is somehweere for shure for me, and all three disparate groups ar egreat in their own ways, and i am pleaeses that they botheres d to call ... we shall see. yeah, you could end up in a chopped up pile of meat in an alley, or 82 living abover a diner in adaho or a thousand other mundane deahts from heart diesease and heart ache, but until then i'm gonna play until i hate it, i'm going to play until i lose my arms or hands or will or whatever, i'm gonna play until taking up needle point seems like a really fgreat idea, until then i am going to play, and whne i am drunk asi mayyybe i just now, i am going to sing until my liver leaves me, things are gogh. i don't know what i expected. i don't know what to expect next. i am happy enough for now working out quite so well as it has, i guess i'll continue on and try to keep certain things open and monstrous and certain thioings in check and we or i shall see.
they say hindsight os 100 per cent. fuck, that depends on which part of your past you ar looking at, and which part orf your brain you choose to engage at thtat moment. only time will tell. and even then it will be subjective.