idiocy
Sunday, January 04, 2004
ok, life is absurd. . . . and strangely, the word is not gratifying, but something that escapes my drunken mind at themoment....fuck!!!, not justification, but something....anmywyas, iit has been said that if you believe , kind of like Santa, and if you bother to formulat e an actuale and current usefulwish thtat you can and will and are abellle to act upon to the universe, it will often, of that os obtainable at that easy moment wand and when thasst thing is open to the idea it will all work aout...and already this year ist's happeneed and i was so fucking flummoxed that i hesitated. . . .and as it goes, i lost....i went back later, and more drunkener, fuck you that is so a word, have you never been drunk? and then the bar was so strange and , well, crowded with vaiuous egos that i was unsure how to proceed except with violence, and so i did not and left, with my numbers intact, but somewhere he is ou t there and was delivered by the universe, i can only preumse for nefarious musical reasonsd and yet he luckily escapes to wander freee.....fuck you mother, fucker, i dfid not mean to be so sick and therefore so ddrunk...i am pretty sure that i shall wake up dead tomroww, and so i keep drinking,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i am dyng, it is better that the hoards were winning and i escape kind of.....did i tell you that i styaed in last night and watched the miami ivice movie, yes, there is one, and its level of genius is no unlike that of the schoool of rock....theay are both genius in the realms that they won't make any of us live any longer ,m bu t like certain metal songs, speak to the depravity of what we stupid fat americans can be...sfuck you, i don't care if ozzzy's british....metal rules the heartland...off to die now, thank god for beer and the salvatiopn sof a cab driver letting you leave the window open in the midst of the wnter///...aftrwe muxch editing, i think this is legible, this is so very complicated and i am currently missing a gothy show of pretty...why does my house smell of cooking ioil? strange, and i cannot breathe and i have to shoot tomorrow, fuck why can't some parts of it all just fucking be over already and ovther parts just fucking go ahead and get startttted already.fuck.thank god for the beer and the amplifier and the marshall stack,. too bad ab my genetics................what have i just done to my board host mayhem? must go and mixf wha ti canot fsee...