idiocy
Sunday, December 07, 2003
ow. so this i've drunk my christmas bonus. what is left will go towards booze for friends and friday's party. come by the new place, if you are free. drinking starts at 6 and goes until whenever. i think i've given myself stomach cancer. remember how i was sick for most of november, etc.? and took time off from the oblivian-drinking, and tho it's been a couple weekends of re-training, i can't quite make it back. i also suspect that my poor pet is sick and doesn't sleep and so then i don't sleep may have something to do with it. i'm one of those people for whom sleep heals everything. but my tummy still hurts. why with all the smoking the past week? i guess i'm just a sucker for the hand-rolled yummy ones. last night was silly. i think i had fun, there were a lot of real nice people there. i forget sometimes just how many great and talented people there are in this town. ok, done with work, off to the art museum. do digital prints count as art? warhol has made everything grey. frankly, i don't mind so long as it's pretty or interesting. hm.idiocy
argh!!!nothying eworks, not that everything is bropkne, but that which is easiest is not htat which i a\want.a beautiful typical portland rain tonight
and beautiful typical joe and the guy leaving with somebody else
twise in two weeks, i am a wiinner, and so, i bummed a smoke off the cabbie and hung out in t the cab with the meter off at 2 am discussing thw rold and the presidents and how there is no way out. even if you decide to get married and have babies, there is no way to escape the armageddon thast is coming.
it was very pleasant not so sound trire, bu thtere was even a good blues tation on
and now i am home, mostly with the place to myself, no more cigarrettes , just a stinky infested dog, and no one to touch. the general good time. if i weren't me, i might despair, but it is still good, , so much better than what hasome before. and so, i shall drunekenly pass out , after practicing my bass and staring at the ceiling listening to the rain at 3 am in december , i am broken, but i am freee.
we shall see how far this gets me.